Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Somalia, Sept. 27, 2011


We arrived in Mogadishu, Somalia, around 8:30 a.m. local time, and started to work immediately—knowing that our time here is limited, we wanted to make every minute as efficient as possible.

Just as immediately, we felt the difference of Somalia from Kenya. Ridwan finally got the front seat after I, the sole lady in this Islamic Relief USA convoy, had been forced to take the front seat every time in Kenya—now, 

I was relegated (and gladly so) to the back, where there were tinted windows that would help shade me from the strong Somali sun and from those outside.

That simple difference complemented the sentiment Ridwan was about to say, as he squinted out the car’s window, “This is a very different situation.” I concurred.

It was different than anything he or I had seen before—different from Kenya, and certainly different from the Egypt and Palestine trip we had taken earlier this summer. Buildings were laden with bullet holes; youths were nonchalantly carrying rifles in the streets; dry desperation filled the air with dust—and while they didn’t have much else, pedestrians and passersby had many smiles to give each other and even us.

We finally arrived to the Islamic Relief Somalia office, and were given a debriefing of the current situation and a first-hand account of the programs Islamic Relief USA has helped support in Somalia so far. Jama Hanshi, with Islamic Relief Somalia, told us that more than four million people across Somalia had been affected by the drought, and the largest concentrations of these were in southern Somalia: in the Mudug, Galgadad, Hiran, Bakol, Bay, Gedo, middle Shabelle, lower Shabelle, Banadir, middle Jubba and lower Jubba regions. Jama added, “3.7 million people are in need of food aid, and 2.2 million of these individuals are in the south.” He even said that cereal production in southern Somalia had now reached its lowest levels in 17 years.

So what is Islamic Relief—the only humanitarian group to currently have a fully-functioning office and staff in Somalia—doing about it? Jama explained that Islamic Relief’s initial target is to provide assistance to 50,000 households in the region; that’s roughly 300,000 people.  So far, Islamic Relief has implemented sanitation services; has distributed food packs; has identified and rehabilitated nonfunctional boreholes—and the plans for this coming month include providing support to families willing to relocate; conducting wider feeding programs; servicing more people across other regions; and training locals to be “wash” communities—essentially, helping them learn best practices for water and sanitation  so that they can prevent the spread of disease that may become especially rampant if rains come in the next months.

AbdelAziz Hussein emphasized that as well. He served as guide and translator during our time at an internally displaced persons (IDP) camp in Siliga. In its former life, this IDP camp was the site of the U.S. Embassy; now, the remnant rubble of those buildings is the only identifier that they ever existed. More than 20,000 IDP “households” made Siliga a place of refuge for thousands of Somalis seeking salvation from the drought.  

Sa’adiya, a gentle lady, manages the camp, which is best-known for its medical services: a three-member health teams provide vital medical services to IDPs at a health clinic—and when a refugee can’t make it to the health center for help, a minibus system takes the medical team to him or her. During Ramadan, Sa’adiya helped manage a Ramadan feeding center that provided for at least 1,500 beneficiaries.

“The people in the camp are mostly affected by the drought. Water is the core issue here,” AbdelAziz tells us.
He is the wash coordinator, and had just completed a robust assessment report on the conditions in the camp, which resulted in the implementation of additional programs: “Insha’Allah we’ll be implementing a water trucking system here by next week. We’ve already started it at another camp, and it has been quite successful.”

AbdelAziz’s statement took me back to one I had heard the day before at the Humanitarian Forum in Nairobi: “Everything is water—if we can manage this, we can solve the drought and we can help civil society. Water is life in Somalia, and it is peace as well.”

After water, sanitation is the next priority and challenge, according to AbdelAziz: “I included in my report the need for basic hygiene packets and water solutions. The people here are in too close contact—if one gets sick with measles, others will catch it. The people need to be educated so they can know how to take care of themselves and stop the spread of disease.” And as we’ve heard at the week’s earlier conferences; during Jama’s presentation, when he shared that about 80% of diseases can be prevented by proper wash techniques, and now, from AbdelAziz, education on sanitation will be vital to helping prevent mass disease-spread when (or if) the rains return in October.

If you ask 38-year old Fatimah Dahir Yousef, laying on a tattered mat under a tree to get some shelter from the heat, it’s too late for prevention; she needs help now—she is suffering from Chickenpox, and she can’t do much except move her hijab a bit when it gets in her way. 

His wife is too weak to move a covering from her face, so, Hussain Noor Deli, 22, does it for her as he invites myself, Ridwan and AbdelAziz into his tent to take a look: we see Dek Adel Hassan, 16, on her right side, virtually immobile with her eyes swollen: “It’s measles,” AbdelAziz translates, one of the most common and contagious diseases to hit the camp. “They are in such close proximity, and they don’t isolate themselves when they’re sick; measles is so easily treatable and preventable, but the people are not aware of how—and this is why education is so important.” AbdelAziz says.

But, al hamdulilah, there have already been very noticeable improvements:  Aisha Usman Abdi, who manages the camp’s health clinic, tells us that hundreds of people were coming to the medical center every day to receive treatment; the numbers are slowly but surely dwindling as the help the people are getting through the camp and through the support Islamic Relief and other humanitarian groups are providing is helping to strengthen their bodies and their morale. She adds that the fact that the medical center is now fully equipped with the proper medicines, means she no longer has to send people away or ask them to go elsewhere for help.

As I thank Aisha for her time and information, she cups my hands with hers and says, “Waad mahad sanlahin, thank YOU, and assalamu alaikum!” “La shukr a’a il wajib, no thanks necessary for the obligatory!” AbdelAziz had humbly told me that several times during our discussion, and it is a most-appropriate response here.

And, so, I pass the many “thank-yous” and “assalamu alaikums” and the gracious and strong Somali spirit that we experienced during our visit to Siliga to the community of supporters. YOU are helping make positive change, masha’Allah—this was perhaps best exemplified by the loud and beautiful Qur’an recitation we heard as we were exiting the camp; it came from young children attending Islamic school in a tent (shout out to Islamic Relief Austrailia for supplying the Qur’ans for this school).

If the size and the stories of the Siliga IDP camp are any indication, there are miles more to go in ways to help. And, the people of Mogadishu know—and trust—that we are all doing our bests to provide it under the guidance and mercy of Allah (swt).

“Waad mahad sanlahin!” [thank you in Somali]

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Dreaming in Nairobi

Dozens of humanitarian aid workers and a single question—before you meet Allah (swt) insha’Allah, what is a dream you want to realize?

Dr. Hany El-Banna, cofounder of Islamic Relief, was sitting on one of the carpets in the Arab-seating styled tent, asked the question and looked right at me, sitting directly to his right on one of the cushions. Although he feigned that he may choose someone else to start, I knew he’d come back to me, and insist that I share first.

And he did…

But what was my dream? Here I was--sitting in Nairobi, Kenya, with an international crowd of people who do their bests to help those in need, and I had to share my dream. Was it fair to even suggest wanting something when in a day or two, I’d be headed to Somalia to report on people who couldn’t even muster the energy for a dream?

But, this was Dr. El-Banna, and I knew there was a greater purpose to this exercise—I also knew he would not let me or anyone else off the hook. So, I shared a dream that was relevant yet general enough so that the others could relate: “I want to live my life in such a way that I make my parents proud and please Allah (swt).”

Dr. El-Banna agreed that it was a commendable dream, and one that many of the others likely shared, but, as he stretched his leg out to a more comfortable sitting position, he noted that he wanted something more specific. So, I added, “I want to be able to live in Palestine as a free and equal citizen.”

Zahra Hassan, from Women of the Horn and Somali Relief and Development Fund, was sitting next to me, and nodded a confirming yes, whispering, “That is what I want too.”

She wanted it for herself in her hometown of Mogadishu, Somalia. She had just returned from a six-day relief trip there, and told me that she hoped to return soon—for good—but to a Somalia that was the place of dreams she had always though it to be:  a place of vivid culture and colors, that had one of the most sophisticated telecommunications systems in Africa and has potential that extends beyond; a place and a people now suffering through the worst drought in 60 years, and the focus of this humanitarian aid gathering.
  
At the 2nd Wider Consultation with Kenyan Muslim Civil Society conference earlier in the day during which Zahra presented information about her recent trip to Somalia, she relayed that the conditions on the ground are beyond imagine-able: "Famine is spreading across Somalia; thousands don't know when they'll get their next meal." She added, "In October or November, if the rain comes, all those people will face another disaster—the spreading of disease." 

Dr. El-Banna, who had been in Mogadishu with Zahra and had witnessed first-hand how sincere and dedicated she was to providing relief in Somalia, told the crowd, “This woman did the work of 1,000 men.” Although I had never met her until that moment, I had no doubt that she had. Masha’Allah.

This trip was the first she had been able to make to Somalia in 20 years; soon, she'll be making her second visit in about a month.

And, insha'Allah, Zahra soon be able to realize her ultimate dream. That circle of 20 people or so—from Australia, England, Ireland, Somalia, Kenya, Yemen, Egypt, Palestine, Syria, Pakistan—sitting together in a tent in Nairobi, were all there to work toward that dream for her and for millions of Somalis who shared her vision.

Dr. El-Banna dream-sharing exercise had introduced also helped us all realize that the similarities of our dreams far outweighed the differences: Simply, we all want to please Allah (swt) by acting humanely and by promoting the spirit of humanitarianism in everything we do. We know that dream is also shared by our generous communities of supporters—who donate their prayers, kind words and charitable gifts to help us help others.

At 11 p.m. local time, the circle finally rose to head home and to wish two of our Islamic Relief colleagues from Birmingham, England, a safe trip to Somalia—they were preparing to head there at 5 a.m. the next morning. Our wishes of safe travels to our new friends carried with them the spirit of the humanitarian dreams we had expressed that evening—for several of us, like Dr. El-Banna and Zahra, the salutations also hinted at what they already knew the Birmingham team would soon experience; for others, like me and my Islamic Relief USA colleagues, Ridwan, Waleed, Anwar and Ahmed, this send off helped us emotionally prepare for our trip soon to follow.

The good-byes also served as acknowledgement that, while we will continue to strive toward our dreams, we are not naive about the amount of work it will take to get there: the damage that has been done in Somalia and throughout East Africa is massive, and there is much more likely to occur. Knowing that there are many all over the world who will do what they can to assist when and where it is needed, however, assured us all that together we can make a world of difference.



Sunday, June 26, 2011

Hope and Help in Egypt

June: 25-26 (six months after #Jan25)




The anxiety of what a trip to Egypt would be like now--in a post-revolutionary era, at a time where Egyptians of all backgrounds, ages, religions, classes stood together to demand better living conditions--set in when I first realized that I would be traveling to Egypt for work. I had never been to Egypt before and while I have traveled to many parts of the world, I've never traveled internationally on the behalf of an organization. 

Myself and Ridwan have joined several colleagues to see first-hand how our organization's programs continue to help improve the living conditions for Egyptians throughout the country. When we first exited the airport late night June 25, we both took a deep gulp of Egyptian breeze and almost simultaneously said, "This feels like when I go home" (home for me being Palestine and for Ridwan being Syria). Tonight, Umm il Dunya resonated with both of us as just that.

The Egyptian night breeze, the hustle and bustle of honking horns and jay-walking pedestrians--feels so beautifully familiar, yet, also surreal. I told Mohammed, who picked us up from the airport, that I had been glued to a TV-screen for months watching the people in Tahrir Square and "That's the Egyptian Museum!" and "Now, we're driving on the Oct. 6 Bridge!"

I asked Mohammed, who also works with the Egyptian affiliate of our organization, how now is different than then--before the revolution started on Jan. 25. Quite simply, he said, we are now comfortable in mind and we have hope. He assured me that Egyptians are not disillusioned and do not think that everything is fixed and perfect. They know and we know there is much to do--and our organization's programs that we are preparing to see in the following days are evidence of that. But, overall, there is a pure, comfortable hope that progress is being and will soon be made.

Ahmed, an extremely accommodating hotel host, offered a similar note, as he helped us secure our rooms for the night--he said that relief organizations were seemingly strengthening their programs here and visiting more often to help more. He had heard the name of our organization a lot in the past few days, and he was happy to welcome more of its staff.  

Now, settled in for the evening, I look out at the Cairo night at 2:15 am July 26...I see the hilal hanging in the sky and I ask ALLAH (swt) to watch over and protect Ridwan, Mohammed, Ahmed and everyone I interact with during my time here; I ask for the protection of all of the community who supports our programs in Egypt and elsewhere; I pray for the protection of all of the wonderful Egyptians who work in the field with or receive assistance from our organization--I pray and feel the Cairo night pulsing with horns and hope. 

Insha'Allah, I'll keep you posted on more news from Egypt in coming days. May ALLAH (swt) accept your good deeds always, and may all of Egypt's warm, welcoming and good people sleep a sound and hope-filled night.  
Tisba7o 3ala khair.


Thursday, April 28, 2011

حر أنا

I haven't written in a while ....

SEMI-SCRATCH THAT

I've written A LOT in this while ...

but I haven't written ME.

I've been neglecting myself.

And, so, I'm giving myself this space to ramble.

حر أنا

Yet, I find myself wordless ...

and brain tried (and tired).

I'm worn in a variety of ways ....

And inspired in so many others ...

I love my new tri-ring ...

And the potential that encircles it.

حر أنا

But I sometimes wish that I didn't have hopes ...

... or believe in fate or people.

I can't say that I've been disappointed ...

... for I never fully allowed myself to trust and rely on anyone

And I learned early on that any disappointment I felt would be my own to own.

I do not force or blame others.

حر أنا

Because if I was idiotic enough to think someone else would do something well ...

... well

then, I was the idiot and had only myself to be disappointed with.

He sure is a disappointment.

But only because I allowed him to be ...

... because I made a jester into a king when he was only ever meant to be the former.

حر أنا

It was my choice.

It is my choice.

And despite my hesitations and reservations ...

... and the pensive twisting of my tri-ring 

... I'm going to allow the king who is making himself a jester just to entertain me

in

حر أنا

Because, regardless of my self-inflicted disappointments ...

 ... and my wishes for the otherwise

... I do believe in fate and people.

Because, regardless of the forced indifference ...

.... and my wishes for the truth of it ...

I'm not indifferent.

حر أنا

I am who I am ...

...and he is who he is ...

... and we'll see where fate and belief take us.

حر احنا

Saturday, April 16, 2011

TEDx Ramallah

They are scared of us because we are not scared of them; they oppress us because they know our potential--for we achieve despite their chains; we lead despite their denials ||| WE ARE FALASTEEN & WE ROCK! #TEDxRamallah

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

I drove in Palestine

I hate not having my car: it's my car, and I want to drive it--not another's, not my father's.

But sometimes I must, and yesterday was one of those times--it was also the first day of my new era.

Yesterday was the first of a series of days, of weeks, of months, and perhaps, of years, that may not include my regular Palestine summer vacation.

That's a thought I can hardly bare to think, but I think of it often...

...and I thought about it as I sat in my father's driver's seat, put on my seatbelt, and looked for a CD to replace the missing iPhone connection that remained in my car which remained at the shop.

I opted against Om Kalthoum and the 'O Brother, Where Art Thou?" soundtrack, and slid a copied CD into its slot.

"Allaaaaaaaaaaaahu Akbar. Allaah aaaaaah ahhhhuuuuu Akbar!" 

But this was not a Qur'anic recitation.

This was, he was Saba7 Fakhri,
and he is one of my father's favorites.

And his is one of the CDs I always listen to when driving the silver Highlander.

Saba7 stirred up a whirlwind of Arabesque, confined within four doors, windows, an exposed sunroof, and a redheaded driver--especially within the driver; within me.

I felt Palestine, for Palestine is how Arabesque and Arab-ness feels to me. 

I felt Palestine as it was when Saba7 was a Syrian voice blistering a Beitilu radio's speakers with its pitch and reverberation, and my dad was a tike confined to fields, olive trees, naivety, and occupation.

I saw Palestine as my periphery caught quick glimpses of Hatim's paperwork and his comb and his cologne. The Japanese car, made in America, was very much my dad's, and my dad is very much Palestine for me. 

I am very much my dad's.

I drove, watching the road, but seeing the streets that wind from the coast to the city, through a piece of earth that is holy and haunted; a place that hurts and heals me.

Hearing Saba7 hurt me yesterday, and made me tear, as I'm tearing now. Saba7 is an era that I can never know. He was alive when Palestine still was.

Palestine still is...

Palestine is Mohammed Yousef Darwish El-Khatib and Fatima Yousef Darwish El-Khatib Il Shamali, and as they are now hugged in earth, they are Palestine too. [Allah yir7amkom]

Palestine is Majdulena at Dar il Tifl before Miral ever was.

Palestine is Hatim listening to the radio...

...and Hatim and Majdulena and Fatima and Mohammed are me.

And, when I drive Hatim's car, I drive in a memory that was set for me before I ever set foot on earth, or on pedal.

And I feel Palestine wrap the warmth and strength of Saba7's voice around me to tell me, "Allah ma3ik. Drive forth. You will always find me here...

...in Hatim's car and in your heart."







Monday, March 28, 2011

Revolutionary kitsch

Leila Khaled has become a t-shirt. 

But she is not a t-shirt, she is a person with a story much more colorful than the greens and whites and hues and shadows used in the depiction of her on the cotton canvas. 

Leila Khaled is a revolutionary, made of blood, sweat, and tears, but not thread.

Revolutionary Me is a design company that silk-screened Leila's face on a t-shirt.

When asked who Leila Khaled was, Revolutionary Me said, "I don't know, but I designed it."

I celebrate revolutionaries, and work to share and spread their stories. I would be the first one to don a t-shirt with Leila's image on it so that I would get asked, and then would answer. 


But THAT is the responsibility that should be borne by the designer and the wearer--know who you are "designing" and wearing.


Kitschy consumer mass produced imagery turned artistic under the guise of Andy Warhol. And, at least for some of us, because of him, Campbell's soup cans are not just containers for drinkable food, and tin is not just material that is melded into that container. And, at least for some of us, because of Warhol, Marilyn Monroe is not Norma Jeane Mortenson--she is a series of pouty lips, blonde waves, and a mole, commercialized and reproduced in your choice of colors. Yet, because Andy pointed out what Marilyn's celebrity stole from Norma Jeane, we were exposed to poor Norma Jeane's vulnerability, and how she shriveled and died under the spotlight--the same spotlight that ultimately murdered Marilyn. Andy's was a commentary on this very commoditization, whether via soup can or celebrity.


Che Guevara did not hold soup or sing breathy renditions of "Happy Birthday Mr. President," but his beret and brown/black waves are just as popular and reproduced as Marilyn's. Actually, his portrait has been deemed "the most famous photograph in the world." So, maybe his image is even more kitsch.


But is HE? 


Is a revolutionary, like Leila or Che, created for public consumption, like a soup can or a celebrity? Well, in many capacities, I guess she and he and they are. After all, if a revolutionary is not popular and followed, the revolution he or she is advocating won't gain much traction. So, a t-shirt, promoting a revolutionary's position would serve to increase the following (posthumously in Che's case).


If we were to flip this, perhaps we could also argue that wearing a shirt with Marilyn on it requires just as much responsibility as one with Che would require. Wearing that shirt makes you Marilyn's promoter. You promote her "normal" life turned scandalous turned deadly and all that her decades held.


But Norma Jean designed herself into Marilyn Monroe into a commodity intentionally and for financial profit. Leila and Che did not. 


Leila and Che did not "design" their commodification--they stood for something on the solid ground of it being what they believed in--period. They did not manufacture t-shirts to sell their revolutions--that was done sans their permission.


And, here we are, back to the original point of this post: know what or who you are promoting when you wear someone's face on your chest. And demand that fools who claim they've "designed" or "created" a revolutionary take their ignorant blinders off. 


"Revolutionary Me" has proven itself to be kitsch sans the art of revolution. It's proven itself NOT to be the educational and fashionable and change-driving organization that it claims to be--that it could've been. 


"Revolutionary Me" is a wasted opportunity that Andy would've shunned as unartistic and unfortunate and kinda kitsch-less--for it makes no comment on culture or society because it does not have the wit or smarts or the genuine sexiness to do so. "Revolutionary Me" has bastardized revolution and revolutionaries into a for-profit enterprise--something Leila and Che would revolt against.


"Revolutionary Me" is neither rebellious nor with cause. 


And I hope its threads unravel and its colors bleed away, before the "designer" sees a photograph of Mohamed Bouazizi, and exploits him and the revolutions he sparked, claiming to have "designed" them too. 


I hope "Revolutionary Me" is exposed it for what it is--a poser that hopes to be fashionable but is instead devoid of it.


Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Il wara2a

She lay, crinkled and weathered and light, on the top of the heap.
Her new home: the dirt mound...
...guarded by two twisted olive trees, taller than assumed, for juthoorhom originated in cracked seeds centuries below the surface.

Il wara2a folded-in her right corner, an origami wind-breaker to guard the diagonal from the gust of hawa that blew furiously over and through the hilltop; the sister-breeze was the one who brought her here, and she didn't want the brother to take her away.

She bore the marks of a lack of direction, tattooed with pencil and scarred with eraser.
But it wasn't her fault.

She was born crisp and clean and proud, bleached with boundlessness and starched with purpose.
She was il wara2a, a canvas for creation.

And the olive trees smiled at her, lovingly and somberly, for they knew asilha and they teared at her fate. And they vowed to protect her, so long as she remained on the earth at the base of their trunks.

The sun beamed her brightest, and il wara2a caught her glow within the folds that held the holes the opened to folds below.
And the sun penetrated and bleached her white whiter with golden hue and heat.

But it hurt. It hurt as a salt-rub against raw pulp, where roots were still stringy and organic and moist with earth, and not yet bonded and jaded and dry.

The hawa blew and the trees bowed and shaded il wara2a from the harsh sun.

And she sighed paper-tossing-across-earth with relief. But forgetting is a blessing bestowed upon humans, not upon trees and their progeny, so the scent of the singe of new freckles would remain with her forever.

3adee--she was accustomed to abuse.

Il wara2a stretched out her corners with voracity, and "chehhhhhh"ed forcefully to undo what had been done to her by man and time and sun.

And she ripped her own right corner off, now forever undone,
and without an origami sheath to shield her from impending winds.

With sullen glance she peaked out through her ink blots and saw the majestic and mature olive trees ranks above. She stretched a bit more, but gentler now, as a still-sleeping newborn cradled in the arms of her mother--not aware of her motion but proceeding because of organic necessity.

And she stared at the familiar strangers, creating a two-tree canopy of leaf and zaytoon above.
She felt protected, and stripped of abuse.
She felt rejuvenated and relaxed and calmly confused.

The right shajara bowed her head to catch a leaf between the rock and 2aneenat cola that lay next to il wara2a. She pulled back with might, plucking out a piece of her life...

...so that the wara2a would know hers.

The hawa downshifted to naseem, and tip-tapped the leaf to il wara2a, so she could embrace her kin, her past.

The wara2a wrinkled with remembrance--she knew 3ala tool the patterns of veins, and could trace them even before they tickled her top sheet.

Then, she relaxed and embraced her long-lost ancestor. She folded her remaining three corners and her right stub onto herself, and held the leaf in--a hug between missing relatives who had just found each other.

And it began to rain.

The shitta dropped in dollops, and hole-punched the reinforced wara2a, still holding her leaf. The harder the pound, the stronger the bond.

She held on as she began to bleed blue ink, and slowly and chemically began to change state.

drip, drip, drip, drop

The four corners had dissolved into her center, and the leaf was now her new spine.

Il wara2a withstood and felt and could not tanish any bead of water that beat her deeper into the mound of dirt.

Il shajar did their bests to interlock their leaves, layering a canopy above il wara2a, but the leaves of the zaytoon trees are slender and could not provide enough coverage.

They watched as il wara2a dissolved into shreds of awra2 that melted away exposing the leaf-spine. The shreds dissolved into confetti that freckled the dirt wet-white...

...until finally, il wara2a, il awra2, by the beat of the rain, had returned to asilha, and drained centuries down the dirt, riding the juthoor, to the cracked seed...

...filling each half with herself and mache-ing the parts back to whole. Il wara2a was in the earth at the base of their trunks--and there she'd remain, protected.

The rain stopped, the sun glistened off the beads on the zaytoon leaves, and the hawa blew the shajar dry...

...and blew another sheet off the spiral daftar and onto the dirt mound.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Staircase summer

It was circa 6 AM, Palestine Shari3 Al Khala time.

I tied my shoelaces, and lifted off my temporary twin bed. I grabbed my billaphone and my iPhone, and made my way out the door and around the left to the kitchen.

I figured "Sitti" would be in there, shuffling through yesterday's groceries in the refrigerator or washing dishes. And she was.

She figured I would be up soon to go "tarid". And I was.

"Kont bidee asa7eekee bes fakrt, 'khaleeha tnaam.'" She always said that.

I kissed her "deeree balik," and headed out the kitchen door, dodging the hanging, drying laundry; and un-noseily floating passed the awakening windows of the neighbors' living room; climbing up the broken stairs, passed the "shajar-house" and shajrt il lemon.

At the border of the street corner, I started to prepare myself for my inaugural "daraj" run, and used that focus to lose focus of the drive-by starers who simultaneously wonder and figure that this redhead girl must be a Palestinian visiting from Amreeka, and coming from dar il Shamali. And I continued up, toward il Mutala3.

I left Samear sleeping: ***Let him sleep. Those boys have been staying up pretty late, and this is his vacation. Let him stay sunk into takhto, ta7t il Falasteenee farsha wl i7ram, u bayn a7lam that now likely include Palestinian girls and land and trees and "shajar-houses."***

This was my run anyway--the daraj were mine--this sunrise is mine--a wakening At-Tur is me.

I arrived.

The daraj had left.

I stood, stunned on the former first/sixtieth stair, and stared.

I looked beyond at the Israeli flag that marked the Israeli company that was based at the bottom of the staircase. I looked beyond at Falasteen, at the highway to the right of me, and the Golden Dome shimmering in the now-risen sun and beckoning pilgrims, tourists, innocents, and evils toward her city.

Standing, I stared. Seated, I stared.

I attempted to start a make-shift, new-formed daraj run, but to no avail. Even if the first 10 were there, the subsequent sets were not. And this was not a roll-in-the-dirt exercise. I was there to descend and climb.

My heart sunk: "Yakhsara."

I turned around, sideswiping the parked cars and tourist bus that were still sleeping in the parking lot. I walked up with heavy step passed the lion insignia and toward the bend, staring at the forests and lands before me as I shifted toward the right. I greeted the lamp poles with a swing, as I treaded on the narrow side pocket which held dirt and rocks and trash and settlements of grass.

I was at il Mutala3, and I started down the hill, exchanging smiles with some of the women and girls, now awake, and going somewhere. I kept focus off the drive-by starers who had seen me before and still wondered. I cut the corner by Duko's store, and hop-walked down the white sidewalk on the right side of the street. I descended the stairs passed Aunti Layla's house and the lemon trees and the "shajar-house" and the make-shift playground, and the single step that caught those unfamiliar and unfamilial off-guard. I walked passed the stirring salon and the mostly-dried laundry, and I opened the screen door to an empty kitchen. Well, almost empty--the jelly was there waiting for me to put it away.

"Meeeeeeeen?!?!?!" I didn't respond. "MEEEEEEEEEEN 3al bab?!"

"Ana, ana."

"Ya3?! Taradti, khalasti?"

"La. Hadoo il daraj. Daraji ra7. Ishee bikhzee."

"U laysh?"

"Ba3rfsh, shikilhom bidhom ybano daraj jdeed."

And there my annoyances and I plopped, next to il Shamaleeya, who was counting the beads on her masba7a and saying quick prayers on every one, interrupting herself to tell me a story or to ask me about Samear or to tell me to eat kirshela or notifying me again about the secret ma3mol basket in the stand-alone closet in her room or telling me, "kaman shway, immik, Majeeeeda b ttsl."

And I stared out from il shubak 3a Shari3 il Khala: I frowned that my Palestine summers would never be the same.

I looked back at il Shamaleeya, lit by the 7 AM sun, and I smiled that my Palestine summers were staring back at me and, in between beaded prayers, sneakily winking and spiriting, "the less the staircases, the more of you for me." Her eyes hugged me with laughter on the left and history on the right, and whispered, "you'll be alright."

"Roo7ee fay2ee Samear, khalee yakol." She always said that.


***Allah yir7amik ya 7abibtna ya mukhtara ya sayf Falasteen, ya Shamaleeya***

Toyota First-Aid Kit

I was to take her this morning because I wouldn't be able to pick her up this evening...
...because I have a meeting.

Increments of 10, the trio sat and stared and sanctified the sentiments of a poet--new to us but familiar in his emotion. He expressed us, and reaffirmed us in 10 to 12 minute clips three times over.

Minutes passed as I tossed words with my dad about inconveniences and obligations...
...I assured him, I would take her.

Moments passed as I went to get ready, and paused to pass memories and warmth with a friend who needed an ear and needed a heart...
...I assured him, I was there for him. And then, he left.

And so I got dressed--not pausing as I responded to my mom's calls of "yallah!"
"Ok, ok, Im coming." I was making her late, but I was right on time on God's watch.

"Do you still want to go 3al o2boor?"
She huffed, mostly annoyed but also loving, "I can't now. I'm already late."

Minutes passed as the Toyota hummed 495 in unison with AbdelBasset. Al Qur'an Al Kareem 3a roo7 il Shamaleeya, and the third day of the mourning period passed minute-by-minute.

"You don't need to speed to get me there," she mumbled so as not to out-sound the recitation of Surat Al Ba2ara.
"I'm not speeding," I mumbled as I eased my foot off the gas, and eased from 70 to 65 before I breathed the last syllable of "speeding." 

Seconds passed as I watched her walk toward the door of Khalti's house to began her Sunday chores, and I wavered between trails. 

I chose Fletcher's Cove because God chose it for me.

I drove.
I arrived.
I reversed to park.
I switched from CD to Tape, and plugged in my iPhone.
I called Dar il Shamali because I hadn't yet. I spoke.
I almost finished the call twice before, but Samira kept me reminiscing, kept me comforting, kept me giving an ear and a heart. "Il Shamaleeya 2a3da bt7adirlna il wara2 dawalee!," she beat me by miliseconds to that joke, and I told her so. We laughed and finally finished on the third goodbye. I had anticipated this would be a longer conversation, and that my run would be delayed, and I loved it as I love il Shamaleeya.

And I was right on time on God's clock.

I ran.
My left knee was killing me. While "Sitti" was still here, it was the right. Now that she had left, it was the left. 
Fifty minutes passed as I ran through it.
I paused along the railing to stretch out my calves, and to update my status: "DO so that you may forget how to utter the phrase, 'ya rayt.'"
I had been thinking of that during at least 5 of the 50 minutes because I had said it to Samira, and I had to write it now or else it would be lost.

I walked to my backed-up car, opened the door, put the iPhone and the earbuds on the seat.
"HELP!!"
"HELP!!"
I looked around to see where it was coming from and if it was sincere--I'm a skeptic, OF EVERYTHING.
I saw nothing.

"HELP!!!"
I ran.
Others did too.

Betty was older and frail and weighed down. She had fallen as she had tried to leave the portable restroom, and caught one leg out while most of her was still in. She was embarrassed and hurt, and Fred-Robert was unable to lift her on his own.

I gave Betty my words and my heart, "You're OK, just relax and breathe. You're OK, just take a deep breath. You're OK. You're going to be OK."

Some of us kept the "jon" stable while others lifted Betty.

"No, we do not need an ambulance. We can do this."

The men left after she was propped up to sit and relax, to get her senses about her, to breathe, and to calm the shaking.

Tammy and I stayed with Betty and Fred-Robert; we all waited for her to stabilize.
Betty was embarrassed, and I assured her, "Nothing is weird in Washington, so don't worry."
Fred-Robert responded, "Well, we're from LA, so we know about that. But we thank you so much. In LA, if people heard, 'HELP!', they'd just run away faster. Thank you."
And then he continued, "Man, you two must be nurses or mothers or something." 
"I'm neither," I smiled. "Really?!," said Fred-Robert. "I'm a mother," said Tammy.

Moments and words passed before we discovered the expanding bruise on Betty's right ankle and the cut that had formed.

"I think I have a band-aid in the car."
I ran.
I had left the left door open, but kept close eye on it while keeping close eye on Betty. I closed it and opened the trunk, and I remembered: Toyota First-Aid Kit.

Minutes of "thank-you"s from Fred-Robert and Betty to Tammy and me. Cleaned and bandaged and relaxed, Betty was ready to take the two steps into their car. I placed the Toyota First-Aid Kit on the hood so I could help stabilize the "jon" as she stabilized herself and leaned on Tammy and Fred-Robert so that she could depend less upon her bad left leg.

She was in: "See, you're safe and secure now."
The four of us said our good-byes: "Have a safe rest of your day in Washington."

Tammy and I walked back to our cars, and I noticed her license plate: she was a Maryland driver. I kept my mouth and mind shut ;)

I returned the Toyota First-Aid Kit to the trunk.
I opened the left door, and got in.
I switched from Tape to CD, so AbdelBasset could pick-up Surat Al Ba2ara where I left it. 
"Al 7amdulilah," I said as the Toyota hummed gravel-under-tire.
Minutes later, I was home--late and punctual, as God had intended.












Wednesday, February 9, 2011

love.fight

I'm not a lover.

I'm a fighter...
...I crave Nescafes and towash.
...I embody that red-head fury that all want to assign to me
...I have it, and in between punches and knees to the head, I love it.

But I'm not a lover.
except for today...
...I had been anti-everything in mind, spirit, and stride
...I had made my annoyance apparent on my face, and I didn't care who liked it or didn't
...I had been a body of fury, and I smiled at it

And, then, he made me smile.
and I smiled again, and several times more.
...I am post-kneed in the heart
...I am love-punched in the crescent of my smile's crescendo
...I am knocked out

Five times today, five times this night
...I am blacked and blued, and vessel-broken
...I am swollen-eyed, and sliver shut
...I am lip-cracked, and bridge-bowed, and I love it

And I'm in love with it
because I didn't see it coming, and I had no reason nor chance to fight it.
...I was caught, guards-down
...I was caught, right chin
...I was caught

For he impressed me, the unimpressed
as he impressed upon me what it was to see
...despite the blacked and blued eye
as he impressed upon me what it is like to speak and smell
...despite cracked lips and a nose with fallen bridge
as he let me press and sink my senses into his bullet wound

I'm not his lover,
but I am his fighter
...I've loved him since that day
...I've known him just today
...I've been KO-ed with a simple share that hit the right spot.

But he won't know...
I love to fight him, and I fight to love him.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Security blanket

I'm so comfortable right now, and I don't want the feeling to end.

I'm pushing away the nagging of an impending Monday morning; I haven't let go of Al Jazeera English yet, but I'm trying to relegate only the periphery of my left eye and my left ear to scan bites for major developments. Most of it, I've seen before.

I'm so warm; it's so soft; I don't want to leave this place or position.

I pull the fleece under my arm to hug my left side; to make me feel something soft; to remind me what tenderness and innocence feel like.

I've forgotten what they feel like. I've been fogged by farce and skepticism and cynicism, and I'm enraged and have temper. I do my best to keep the heat inside, and breeze on the facade. I am always ruffled though.

The fleece keeps the heat on the inside.

Right now, in my comfort, I'm calmed. I long for being calm. I long for being able to slide my finger across emotions, catching slivers in the etchings. My fingers don't sense anymore, unless forced to focus and feel.

The fleece helps me feel...even as I phase out. Even my fingers are feeling--the outsides of one set softly stroke the insides of the other, and all of my sensors rush to and pulse there...sakhsakht. I don't care that my sleep will be rudely disrupted by the Monday morning; I don't care about Al Jazeera and all of the world's ills; I certainly don't give a shit about the Superbowl or that the Packers won; screw it all and leave me alone.

Leave me to the comfort of my fleece blanket; leave me comfortable and secure.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

The 13th day

I've been sedentary for as long as they've been mobilized.

I've been captivated by a movement that left me still.

It's been 12 days that they've been chanting, marching, fist-pumping, fighting, singing, and cheering.

It's been 12-1 days since I've exercised; tomorrow, the 13th day (the 12+1), I will work out,
and, I pray, he will be out-worked.

I have never paid so much attention for such an amount of time: at home, at work, on line | anxious when I'm away from access for too long. A smoker out of money and down to my last drag: I cringe at the uncertainty of when my next fix will come.

I'm unable to get bored enough to change the channel--even if the Al Jazeera broadcast is being repeated. And, yes, Al Jazeera, or Al Jaz (as I've been calling it these past 12 days) and I have cultivated a relationship: born out of necessity and longing for raw truth; driven to the point of obsession and fatal attraction. I've announced our status loudly--on FB, at work. The CEO of my company knows->I'll be found typing and listening, and, sometimes, just listening. The article will get written, and I'll remain comfortably in-the-know.

For 12 days, I've looked at Cairo/Al Cahira and Alexandria/Askandaria more than I ever have--including the semesters of Art History that made me learn the stories behind and beyond and within the wondrous and iconic pyramids: boxes of index cards to date the hieroglyphics and identify the pharaohs busts.  I appreciated the art and the history, but I left it alone as often as I could. I can't leave alone Egypt now.

I've heard Egypt more than I ever have in these 12 days--and for anyone familiar with popular Arab culture, that is saying a lot: generations have quieted before Om Kalthoum's microphone or Abdel Halim's serenade--their melodies and love-drenched lyrics pipe up instantly at the first breath of the name "Masr." But even they have been hushed. "Ir7al, ir7al, ir7al!"--that is the verse reverberating now at the volume of 1,000,000 decibels. The people's song is loud and lovely.

A lovely 12 days ::: In 12 days, Egyptians became the champions of their nation, overshadowing the pharaohs and the kings and queens of song and stage. Egyptians became the champions of our nations. The people have given other people the rush and have garnered respect that no art history book or concert could inspire. Their spirit has been remarkable.

A deadly 12 days ::: In 12 days, Egyptians have sacrificed much: warmth, food, water, facilities, life. Intermittent civil standoffs have pitted the spirit of good against that of greed on the ground and in the government. Egyptians gave to receive; they are still giving, and waiting.

It is 5 hours into the 13th day there now. Al Jaz is still visible over this laptop's top, and it's audible in surround-sound. Egypt is streaming through the screen and my sedentary soul. I've been sitting, and staring, and praying psalms.

When my 13th day comes in, I'll meet it with a work out. I hope Egypt will meet one too.

I've and you've

I've had to hold myself back--multiple times in these multiple days.
I've had to keep from lashing out at you--who once held my respect in the crevices of hands' lines.

You've dropped--from my hands, and now from my eyes,
and soon from my heart.

I've loved you with a love that not even I was aware existed within the veins within me.
I've loved you--and I still do, but

You've withered--out of the heartbeat pulsing my state of "in love," and there is a formidable line between "love" and "in love."

I've stopped liking you--and while you may not care, you will feel that change.
I've stopped respecting you--and with that, you can never again feel the crevices of my hands' lines holding you tight or up or with care.

You've given me an opportunity to say and mean "never."

I've realized that you don't deserve my restraint--nor do you deserve my fury.
I've realized that you are who you've said you are--an asshole--and I've remained a lady.

FB ::: #Jan25

Reem El-Khatib
‎"Same thing that floats your boat can capsize it."--Shad
January 25 at 7:54am

Just last night, Toni and I were noting how Jan. 25 had no particular significance--12 hours later, Jan. 25 has become a "Day of Anger" in Egypt and a "Day of Rage" in Lebanon. "Day of Justice" soon to come insha'Allah.
January 25 at 3:43pm












Ya Allah: Give us the strength and the steadfastness to see our missions through, and remind us of who we are and where we come from--Your Light--so that we will never stoop to the levels of the bastards we are ousting, and we will always cultivate our might for right | revelation & revolution
January 25 at 8:23pm
OK, so now that the lights in the building and on the streets are off, we're hearing weird noises--maybe this is not thunder snow; maybe this is UFO ??
January 26 at 8:14pm
thunder snow 2011 : candle light | nescafe | absurd text convos | roar
January 26 at 9:51pm
akh ya 2albi | akh ya mokhi | akh ya ro7i
January 27 at 12:20am
Fed Gov followers--2 hours late
January 27 at 5:46am
THAWRA ♥ -> TUNIS ♥ -> MASR ♥ -> YEMEN ♥ -> FALASTEEN ♥ -> LUBNAN ♥ -> IL DUNIA ♥ -> 7UREEYA ♥
January 27 at 6:00am
If you've ever wondered what it would feel like to have dizzy spells while you're sleeping, feel free to ask :-/ I'm now the expert. Allah yishfeek, Nelson.
‎(via Hishamuel ;)) : CALL THE WHITE HOUSE AND DEMAND THEY TELL MUBARAK TO REESTABLISH INTERNET IN #EGYPT 202-456-1414 #JAN25 Apparently you have to do it by 5 p.m., or the asswipe who answers the phone transfers you to an automated line that tells you not to leave a message, and to call back
January 27 at 6:51pm
‎"It is quiet common to hear high officials in Washington and elsewhere speak of changing the map of the Middle East, as if ancient societies and myriad peoples can be shaken up like so many peanuts in a jar."
— Edward W. Said (Allah yir7amak)
January 27 at 11:30pm
‎"Every empire, however, tells itself and the world that it is unlike all other empires, that its mission is not to plunder and control but to educate and liberate." — Edward W. Said | "The period of the empire and its bull shit is over." — Reem El-Khatib
January 27 at 11:42pm
Throw down your arms & throw up your fists: "We are not your enemies!"
January 28 at 8:25am
‎"Egypt hit by Tunisami!" --I ♥ George Galloway MP
January 28 at 10:06am
Ta2abl Allah ya Masr--masha'Allah. Hmmm, wonder why the riot policemen are not joining the protesters in prayer?!
January 28 at 10:34am ·
Al Jazeera English -> absolutely great job covering this awesome moment in time!!
January 28 at 10:55am
Masr, Gamal Abdel Nasser is surely proud of you today!
January 28 at 11:25am












Allah yi7fazkom, ya mu'mineen. They were not even phased when tear gas was thrown at them during prayer, but you bet your ass that canister was thrown right back at the riot police as soon as prayer was done! Ta2abl Allah, ya Masr!
January 28 at 11:57am ·
Egyptians gave the world the quintessential example of brotherhood: Copts protecting Muslims as they prayed; police joining civilians in protest; men, women, children marching and chanting as one. A PEOPLE UNITED CAN NEVER BE DEFEATED. Long live Egypt and the Egyptian people.
January 28 at 5:06p











H & M must have been sniffing some wicked stuff before delivering that asinine joke of a statement. Listening to the people 2al--They are saying "down with Mubarak," so n2li3.
January 28 at 5:40pm
EGYPT: People around the world are ignoring the curfew too and standing with you in solidarity. DC--noon to 3 p.m. today at the Egyptian Embassy.
January 29 at 9:10am
when you are fearless, you are free | o32bal il jamee3
January 29 at 9:33am
Aw hell->I'm declaring now until it's done "Topple Every Scumbag Dictatorship" Day | THAWRA + PEOPLE POWER
January 29 at 11:16am
‎"Muslmeen u Masa7eeyon, ma fee far2 bayn u baynkom. Waynkom? Irfa3oo eedaykom-laykom [lililililaykom]. Waza3oo il kilma minee, 'Assalama 3alaykom!'"
January 29 at 7:05pm
‎"The boy reached through to the Soul of the World, and saw that it was a part of the Soul of God. And he saw that the Soul of God was his own soul. And that he, a boy, could perform miracles."--Paulo Coelho
January 29 at 7:56pm
It's all Khalil's fault!!
January 29 at 10:57pm
SMOOD ya 3arab | ALLAH ma3akom
January 30 at 8:13am
Al Jazeera reporter: "People don't give a damn anymore!" Attempts to break the sound barrier have failed->the louder the jets, the louder the protesters | FEARLESSNESS=FREEDOM | A people united will never be defeated, and MASR is absolute proof of that. "Mubarak ir7al!"
January 30 at 9:02am
The images being shown on Egyptian state television are laughable propaganda. Doesn't matter anyway--the Egyptians are living it, not watching your false images on the BOOB TUBE.
January 30 at 10:23am
‎"Ruling classes, before they fall, lose their minds." Word to that one, Wassim.
January 30 at 4:46pm
Getting ready to correct people from saying "o32balik" to "o32bal il 3ayzeen." All for you, Imoo :) Mabrook Imoo & Marble!!

January 30 at 7:00pm via iPhone











Via Ayman Mohyeldin as of 7:20 AM EST: "Al jazeera staff arrested in Cairo, signal interrupted"
January 31 at 7:41am
Al Jazeera reporters now released but cameras seized
January 31 at 8:38am
‎"Mubarak shuffling his cabinet is like shuffling deck chairs on the Titanic."--ARABESQUE | :)
January 31 at 8:42am
‎"'It's impossible.' said pride. 'It's risky.' said experience. 'It's pointless.' said reason. 'Give it a try.' whispered the heart."--Motivation of the Day | Al 7amdulilah, the Tunisian and Egyptian hearts have prevailed.
January 31 at 10:12am
A gazillion man, woman, and child march tomorrow (today already in Masr) insha'Allah. SMOOD YA MASR!!!!
January 31 at 8:44pm
TUNIS TUNIS TUNIS | Millions marching in and with Egypt to kick-out grade-A clinger and DICKtator Hosni Mubarak | Jordanians demand the ousting of PM Samir Rifai, and succeed | Saudis take to the streets condemning their government for inaction | "We didn't start the fire; it was always burning since the world's been turning." | POWER TO THE PEOPLE
February 1 at 7:52am
THE POWER OF WILL | As it gets colder and darker, their voices get louder | masha'Allah | MASR ♥
February 1 at 12:00pm
The Egyptians are absolutely amazing--masha'Allah: Now the protesters are telling the tourists not to leave and that they will protect them | Birfa3o il raas wallah.
February 1 at 1:40pm
‎"We're having more fun than he is."--Egyptian protester, who noted that the groups are organizing soccer games with the military officers | ♥ it, especially because we know how spirited the Egyptian announcers are when it comes to a good soccer game ;) | There is no one more deserving of fun and pride than you, beautiful people, right now! | Game on for you; GAME OVER for Mubarak
February 1 at 2:16pm
‎1 voice, 1+ million decibels loud: "ya 7ureeya, ya 7ureeya | ya Rubb!"
February 1 at 3:11pm
All that speech proved is how talented at bullshit Hosni's PR people are | Hosni, your shit has hit the fan, and it will be spattered back at you | The people's will will not be broken, and you have lost any chance at getting out unscathed | ALLAH MA3 MASR!
February 1 at 4:15pm
ASKANDARIA: ALLAH ma3 il bashar; ALLAH ma3 il 7a2! Run Hosni's paid bitches out!!!!!!!
February 1 at 5:27pm
I wonder how Hosni "won" the last "election" by "88%" when there are only about 300 pro-Mubarak "protesters" (read: paid thugs) who rallied for him tonight | things that make you go, "hmmmmm..."
February 1 at 6:10pm
ALLAH MA3 MASR | The pro-Mubarak supporters are showing the true colors of the regime, and the effects of fearmongering, brainwashing, and ignorance--violence, greed, arrogance, and disregard for human life | This is what the good Egyptian people have been standing up against, and the might for right will ALWAYS overcome | We know you are tired, but keep your resolve | We are with you | SMOOD YA MASR
Wednesday at 8:10am
It must be said: FUCK THE POLICE!
Wednesday at 8:29am
I must admit->I absolutely love seeing how the pro-Mukhara thugs attempt to flee with their tails between their legs when they see the strong Egyptian crowd overcome and bum-rush them | And I curse any kha'in/3ameel/thug/goon who thinks that God's rocks can be used for his ills->may you feel the weight of your sins within each rock, and may the rocks fall from your hands and leave your weak ass defenseless
Wednesday at 9:04am
‎"Please do not call them 'protesters'--protesters do not come on government buses; protesters do not come armed!" | We love you Salma
Wednesday at 9:19am · Privacy: ·  · 
Don't worry about how history will remember you, Mubarak; worry, instead about how Allah (SWT) will receive you. Your billion$ will do you no good then | Allah ma3 MASR

‎"The government denies that plain-clothed police are among..." the pro-Mubarak thugs->this coming from Hosni--a man who has let police abuse the Egyptian people and has rigged elections to keep him in office for 30+ years | Umm, yeah, we believe you, ya khara | IR7AL!!!
Wednesday at 10:56am
SALMA ELTARZI is my hero ♥
Wednesday at 11:48am
‎"Mubarak knew beforehand that his refusal to leave was going to provoke upheaval in Egypt, where innocent/peaceful people are being hurt while I write these lines. His criminal plan is working. Shame on him. Shame on us who can do NOTHING to help the Egyptian people, except complaining here. I feel sad and powerless."--Paulo Coelho
Wednesday at 12:54pm
RAMALLAH->Al Manara, tonight (02.02) at 9 p.m., in solidarity with Egypt.
Wednesday at 1:14pm
appeal all you want, you cowards | you've lost your chance to save face | Friday, if not before, will be your 'Day of Departure' insha'Allah | smood ya Masr
Wednesday at 3:06pm
Bashkor Allah for that which He has given & even moreso for that which He has denied, for He has known, and I just realized at 5 p.m. Eastern time today ;) lol
Wednesday at 5:08pm
the determination of the people is absolutely incredible | they have been standing strong for days without rest | ya3teekom il 3afeeya | nothing will break them masha'Allah
Wednesday at 9:15pm
S ♥ A ♥ L ♥ M ♥ A
Wednesday at 9:47pm
How, ya Allah, am I to sleep, when they have been standing for days?!
Thank you to everyone who has inquired about and supported the Lammet Shamel team. The trip to Mount Everest must be postponed until a bit later on, which only means that we have more time to prepare and fundraise :) Please "like" Lammet Shamel on Facebook to stay in-the-know about the team, new initiatives, and its fund-raising efforts. So, insha'Allah, see you in Falasteen this summer ;)
Thursday at 7:49am
‎"Khaleenee b hamee, la akamil il mohimee."--RGB
Thursday at 9:07am
Ta7eeya la the Egyptian freedom fighter who was wearing a tunjara on his head to protect himself from flying rocks: Ya batal, you would do well in my family, as we use an 2alaya to shovel snow ;) | KOLNA WA7AD, KOLNA MASR!
Thursday at 9:54am
‎"Pray with me, 7abibi, wa over, wa within."--Suheir Hammad
Thursday at 11:15pm
‎7ATTA on | FISTS up | DAY of DEPARTURE has arrived |sajlo 02.04.11= freedom for MASR :)
Yesterday at 7:49am
may those who are trying to hurt their fellow human beings recognize the evil that they embody and repent with sincerity before they meet their Maker | MIGHT FOR RIGHT | thawra->nassr
Yesterday at 9:28am
Protester interviewed on AL JAZEERA->One of the caught goon-instigators in Askandaria/Alexandria held an Israeli passport
19 hours ago
‎"Can't cower when the rain falls, and it falls whether you Ghandi or you Adolf | Fall weather but there's always a way ya'll | Make the call; no rain delay->play ball."--SHAD
2 hours ago
Why people think it has been OK for Hosni to remain stubborn about remaining for 30+ years but NOT OK for the Egyptian people to remain "stubborn" about remaining for some 12 days is beyond me | the people's "stubbornness" is affecting change, and I am with them until they are satisfied | il 3inad ynbo3 min al 7a2ee2a wal iman
22 minutes ago ·
Wednesday at 10:21am







‎"Ma tkhaloona 7abayb ba'a ma3 ba3d" ;)
about a minute ago






For anyone who has said to the protesters, "enough is enough--go back home"--the detention of Al Jazeera's reporters, including Ayman Mohyeldin, is proof positive that the corruption of the Egyptian government has not been cleansed | the zbala must go | stand strong MASR! FREE Ayman Mohyeldin!!
2 minutes ago 


jay 3a balee Nescafe u tosha
2 seconds ago

others: "Reem, you're too independent." | reem: "Thank ya. And, don't worry, if there is a man capable of being depended upon, I'll depend on him to cook for me, and I'll let him claim me on his taxes." :D
February 7 at 7:50am
‎"it's so loud inside my head with words that i should've said. as i drown in my regrets, i can't take back the words i never said."--lupe f. [consider the whole damn song my status update]
February 7 at 10:55am
ya 3aybak, ya 3aybak ya tama3 | Allah b 7asib | a "leader" who steals from his people is not worth the dirt on the shoe of even a common thief | we'll see how well your $$$ serves you when it really counts
February 7 at 8:02pm
‎"please.learn to pronounce.the name of my spirit.the spirit of my name.correctly" [suheir h.] | FALASTEEN ♥
February 7 at 10:54pm
just call me->"Umm il Mili7"
Tuesday at 12:27pm
prayer ::: please let my brain fall out of focus at least for a little bit ::: thanks
Tuesday at 11:51pm
‎***...i'm an anarchist; an angry academic activist |akhi| and i'm actually anti-arrogant...*** Lowkey
Wednesday at 7:48am
a bit ironic that the most anti-Valentine's Day person in the office was picked to write an article about love in the workplace :-/ so, here's my draft: "Loooo ♥ ve in the Workplace: boooooo. bad. the end."
Wednesday at 11:44am
Omar Suleikha'in to his butt-buddy, Ehud Barak->"Egypt wants Gaza to go hungry, but not starve." | yaaaay, how considerate :-/ | hosni muBARAK-ehud BARAK-BARAK obama ... just sayin'
Yesterday at 8:13am
Maybe I should interview Hosni Mubarak for the "love [of] the workplace" article as he exits tonight ?!?! This is gonna be one of those fun breakups->the ones you go out and celebrate | MASR ♥
Yesterday at 11:01am
It's gonna be a real blue-ball if all this anticipation ends with a speech in which Ho-ni says, "mish ra7 atrokkom, 7a dal b khilitkom." | if he does, I say we all "visit" him in his hotel room in Sharm.
Yesterday at 11:54am
YESSSSS | I convinced by boss to kill the "looo ♥ ve in the workplace" article | this must mean Ho-ni Mukhara will be out soon :)
Yesterday at 12:10pm
you are not listening to MASR so MASR will not listen to you | a gazillion-person march tomorrow insha'Allah to shout even louder: "IR7AL"
Yesterday at 4:01pm
I hope that their voices get even louder so that they vibrate the whole country and bounce your ass right into the sea | I hope their voices become a sonic boom over your head | I hope that you are haunted in your sleep by the whispers of the martyrs who are the true patriots of Egypt | ya atrash, ya kha'in, ya khara
Yesterday at 4:28pm
Sitti il Shamaleeya, you broke me and broke my heart today. You took me with you. Ina Lilah w ina Ilayhee raji3oon. Allah yir7amik. Please pray for the soul of my dear Fatima El-Khatib il Shamali. It is through tears and broken will that I type this, and I do so only so that you may read Al Fati7a for her soul.
23 hours ago
Il Shamaleeya, ya Shamaleeya, intee 7abibitna 2abil u ba3d il 7aya | ro7ik rwa7na; 2albik 2oolobna | our families, shari3 Al Khala, and all of At-Tur have suffered a great loss--none will ever be be the same | Allah yir7amik, ya Umm Ahmed, ya mukhtar[a]
17 hours ago
AND FINALLY ON FEBRUARY 11, 2011...

Mabrook MASR ♥
6 hours ago
Ya Allah: The sounds of the Egyptian people cheering is making my broken-heart smile | Allah yir7am the martyrs--you gave your lives for your country's freedom | Allah yir7am Siddi u "Sitti"--I'm sure you are loving the sound of the people's song from above; insha'Allah, one day, we will be singing it in Falasteen ♥
6 hours ago