Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Siddi, I miss you

sub7anALLAH: I never could have imagined that I would miss you as much as I have, ya Siddi.

Two years after your death, and I find myself still crying over you when I hear Qur'an or when that verse in that song about "age" comes up.

I remember my outburst at your 3azza -- probably the first time that I ever publicly shouted at people out of shear emotion ... i was so angry

... the exact opposite of how i felt when i kissed your forehead for the last time.  then, it was so serene. you were smiling.

i still hear your sly laugh in my head or the way you would say "OK".

i see how my mom misses you and it hurts me ... it hurts me to see her tear, cry

she, your eldest daughter
me, your eldest granddaughter

Siddi, i miss you ... i will always miss you because i will always remember you.

i love you.
ALLAH YIR7AMAK, SIDDI.